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Well hmm what to say. Tonys back and I`m pretty excited about that. I told him pretty much everything of how I felt about him and my sister, because it does honestly bother me.
I don`t get how my mom can say that I`m ungrounded. I can`t use the computer because Jeff is a fuckin loser who lives to get me introuble, I can`t use the phone past seven, and I can`t go anywhere. That doesn`t seem like ungrounding to me. I`m seriously thinkin about moving out, I just don't know where I would go right now.
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| 01:48pm 17/05/2005 |
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I guess that i will end up writing in this one again until i get my xanga fixed... I really hate how it's looking now. I liked it a lot better before then i do now.
You are Heroin (aka: smack, dope, brown sugar...).
You are the most dangerous drug between all
other kinds. You are bold, deep, dark,
mysterious, have your own world. You are
classified as class (A) illegal drugs.
What kind of Drugs are you? and how that reflect your personality?
brought to you by Quizilla
You are not an idiot if anything you are really
clever maybe top of the class at everything.
What kind of idiot are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
well im out for now. if you still read this one leave me some love. |
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| 09:22am 24/03/2005 |
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Well hey people if your still reading this , my new journal is on xanga.com, the link is:
http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=xLiVe2DiE07x
so if you people want to check it out, thats my new journal, just make sure that you leave me some god damn comments once in a while.
***WHY CANT MR P JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!*** |
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| 12:46pm 20/03/2005 |
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Well i havent updated in a mad long time so i figured since i had a lil time now i would. Lately i thought everything was going good. My best friend moved back and my life couldnt have been better. Well she decided to make a stupid decision and fuck up her whole life. I dont understand why someone would go to someones house and kik the shit out of them. I mean if you're gonna do that you dont go to THEIR HOUSE! Thats the first mistake. And now shes regretting it because theres gonna be a restraining order and shes gonna hafta switch schools agian (the third different school this year)And right now shes suspended. And the girl who got beat up is threatening to have her x b/f beat up by some people from Webster, and people from Worcestor, Southbridge, and Dudley are getting involved and the whole thing is getting totally crazy. Im not allowed to leave my classroom to go to the bathroom unless my teacher calls the assistant principal to come and escort me down there, and i had NOTHING to do with the fight at all. So i lost my best friend. Isnt that just great and it was her own fault too.
Now my moma nd her boyfriend are fighting again. I asked Jeff if he wanted anything for lunch because i was making it and he said no because he was just a fat piece of shit, i coudlnt help but laugh. My mom thru her ring and watch that her boyfriend gave her into the fire. She sed it was gone because she didnt see it in the ash tray. LMAO. They both say that they're done. Woo HOoo WEll my mom says i have been on here an hour and i have 20 min left so i wil finish l8er. |
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| 09:37am 07/03/2005 |
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Wow some people are really immature in this school. Kayla is back in school again isnt it great. But yeah some people have to be dumb and get mad becasue i didnt talk to for a period but i had a quiz. |
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| I dOnT wAnNa LuV u, BuT nO mAtTeR hOw HaRd I tRy...*I sTiLl Do* |
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| 07:24pm 27/02/2005 |
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*YOUR MiSSiNG WHATS RiGHT iN FRONT OF YOU
A GiRL WHO WOULD GiVE UP EVERYTHiNG \\
J U S T T O B E W i T H YOu </3
Life *Suckin Fux* I cant stand how people have to constantly lie to me. Why the fuck cant they just be strait up wit me in the first place. But hey, im hopin that everything will go back to how it was before i knew people were lieing to me about gay shit. Im out, Leave a comment if u care! |
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| 11:37am 17/02/2005 |
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Ehh...
Most people love you - but then there's others who hate everyone - but don't worry - they probably have no reason to hate you - just keep actinng the way you do and eventually they're bound to leave you alone =)How Many People Hate You?
In love
You are truely in love. You feel as if you need them and only them, yet you must wait for this person to feel the true energy between you both. But Yes you are totally and completely in love....!!!!! r u in love???????
I hope fuckface goes to 24:seven tonight even tho its gay i still want to go to see him. |
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| 01:03pm 16/02/2005 |
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Well this week was the worst week EVER. I mean i have got into so much trouble and shit its not even funny. Okay Monday night i got grounded again, until summer, but now its only for 2 weeks and i better not be grounded over vacation because i will go crazy. Then yesterday Dave G. told me to kill my self, and my mom told me that she didnt like me. Then i hoped today would go better...but no Ms. Pepe had to call me a SKANK!!!! What the fuck, im a skank because i wear a black bra and a white shirt. Thats bull shit. A teacher shouldnt say shit like that to her students. Thats bull shit. It pisses me off so much. Well im out....
I love someone...
-MuCh LuV-
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| 07:52am 07/02/2005 |
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Wow well im pretty sick of the grounded life. It sux so badly. I dont have permission to smoke anymore. I think that would be good for me seeing how i want to do basketball next year. But yeah my mom let me have the tv back on the weekends. I was shooting for the phone, but hey you get what you get. OK ay up until a couple minutes ago...i THOUGHT i was staying after on Wednesday but my good friend informed me that we have a half day. Wow im a loser. I have absolutely NO LIFE. Im very random today just because i have nothing to really say because im grounded and i didnt do anything this weekend. Well Pepe assigned us to read the first chapter in the book but i ended up finishing it. It was a pretty good book...And i watched the superbowl last night, what a close game i was so scared NE wasnt gonna win. I would have to kill them all. HAHAHA!!! Lol. wow. Well i can tell you today isnt gonna be a great day....
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| 09:27am 03/02/2005 |
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Well my life totally sux. My mom decided to go thru my room yesterday and she found a beer can and butts. But yeah it is alot worst then it seems. She threatened to call the cops on me because i didnt wanna be there anymore. She wouldnt let me go to my dads house just to get away. She told me we were moving after she gets a job and saves up. I cant stand Jeff anymore and neither can my mom. I know that he hates me...i hate him too. I always have and always will. He lied right to my face. And he was talking about how im such a liar...well what a hypocrit. He lied right to my fuckin face and then he denies it. Well my mom told me the truth. And he got mad at me because i slammed my door in his face becasue i was tryin to talk to my mom and i thought it was mikey so he opens the door screams fuck you too and slams the door shut. Im so sick of his bull shit its not even funny. Well i told my mom i didnt wanna live there anymore so i asked to go to my dads and she said no so i kept sayin i didnt wanna be there. Well she threw me outside and said wait there because she would call the cops. I really wish she would have because she would have been the one getting in trouble. Then she said i could go to a foster home...Wow what a good mother right.
Well I love how people fuckin think im gonna rat on them all the time. If im gettin in trouble for something thats totally my own fault im not gonna go and bring a whole new topic into it. Thats so retarded. Im so pissed at my mom cuz she wont let me talk to Ryan anymore. Hes my fuckin best friend and she couldnt care less. Now that me and Kayla have been talking more she doesnt want us to hang out anymore. And even tho im not really friends with Kasie im not allowed to hang out with her either.
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| 08:03pm 31/01/2005 |
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HmMmMm...well today was an ok day. Actually it kinda sucked. Dubie Brown sed he was gunna get me a pack of butts...which he didnt...so that pisses me off cuz all he does is lie. I laugh everytime i look at him because he thinks i like him. HAHA thats a good one!! Seeing how about everyone knows who i like...And he thinks that i was flirting with him today...UmMmMm why wuld i waste my time on that shit?!?!?!?! Doesnt make sence to me at all. O well, he can think what he wants but for everyone out there, no i dont like him.
Ugh school was pretty boring...Sean wasnt in today, so bio and algebra were pretty boring. Seeing how i dont really like to talk to anyone else in bio. But w/e its all good. Gym SUCKED! We're playin pickle ball. That game is pretty dumb, the world wuld be better without that game. Its pretty boring. Its like tennis and ping pong. --- Ashley thinks that i cut myself. I have a better life than that, i cant be that cool. She says she was sorry for caring...sorry but caring isnt assuming something and then not listening to me explain shit and then walking away. Thats not the way to solve shit.
O yeah and i love how people change when they are around certain people. Its just great. I dont know why you just cant be your self...or the way you want to be around everyone. You may not think that people notice a change...But they do. At least i know that i do. Its kind of dumb, i try to be the same person around everyone not just certain people.
Drama drama drama...way too much drama going on. Brandy is mad at Alyssa because shes going out with David and Brandy has liked him for i guess 9 years...well GET OVER IT! Brandy doesnt have a chance with him and i know that first hand because DAVID TOLD ME HIMSELF!!! You should never go with your guy friends over your girlfriends, no matter how long you've known him. Davids moving soon and hes not gonna be there, but Alyssa will still be there. Kinda doesnt make any sence to me. But if she wants to fuck up her friendships with the people who ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT HER, whos gonna tell her not to...Not me because i dont care to tell you the truth. Its her life, let her fuck it up if she wants to.
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Well im out because i dont feel like typing anymore and im bored out of my mind and theres no one to talk to because NO ONE is home or there phone is busy. Maybe im not calling the right people...who knows. Im out. L8er. leave a comment fuckers. |
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| 08:06pm 30/01/2005 |
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Well its Sunday, and today is gonna suck. Yesterday was kinda good at first but then at like 7 it got bad. I got up around 8:30 and stayed on the computer until like 11. And then i got ready at everyone was out of the house at 12:00. First we went to Jimmy's basketball game which lasted unitl 1. Then we had to go and drop off Logan in Ashford at her Aunt Tracy's house for her Cousin Skyes birthday party. Then on the way back we stopped at Walmart i got 2 pairs of pants and 2 shirts. Then when we got home i changed and helped put away the shit my mom got from Walmart. Then she dropped me off at the end of Porter Plain so i could go to Ambers SWEET 16 bday party. By the time i got there, Andrew, Ryan, Mikey, and Kayla were already there. Then when Kasie showed up Amber called Seans house to see when Mike, Sean, and Dan were coming over. So i asked my dad if we could go and pick them up. So we did, when we got back they did cake and shit then we went and chilled in Ambers room for a while. Then just about all of us needed to go outside for a butt so we went outside. Someone started throwing snowballs at me so i did it back and Mikey tried to throw me into the snow so i ran away and ended up losing both of my shoes in the snow. Mikey pulled out one of them and then Mike helped me find the other one that we completely under the snow. Then i got thrown into the snow and i was cold anyways so i figured i would lay there for a couple minutes. Then we all decided to walk up to the top of Ambers drive way so we could smoke a butt. Then people were sledding down the hill and Kayla and Sean went down together but they went off track and didnt bring the sled back up so i went to walk down the hill but Ryan pushed me and i slid down and had a hard time getting back up. Then i was trying to push Sean into the snow but Andrew came up behind me and grabbed me and started counting and Seans like NO shes holding on to me. Well i ended up goin into the snow still holding on to Sean but he didnt fall with me. Then after we all went inside to get drinks and my mom called and she wouldnt let me sleep over because Kasie was sleepin over but she doesnt even know Kasie so she cant judge her. So she was gona pick me up at 8 but i was arguing with her so she came and picked me up at like 7:20. I was so pissed. Then she tried to blame me arguing with her on Kayla...which it had nothing to do with. But o well. Well im out because im tired of typing. L8er |
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| 08:49pm 28/01/2005 |
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Well today wasnt so bad. I dont think that Sean is mad at me anymore because he came up to me this morning and shoved me into my locker, maybe saying i was sorry a million times helped it out. Actually i think it annoyed him, and he didnt move his seat again in Bio. Cool shit. He shaved...it looks so funny.
Well well well. I actually got my coputer back today and it is better then ever. Im so happy. But AIM wont work and it kinda sux...well it sux alot, but theres not much i can do about it. Something is still fucked up with my sound and i cant figure out which hole it goes in..kinda sux!
I cant wait until tomorrow. I get to go to Ambers party. Its gonna be great. Anytime i get to leave my house is great, the only place i really go is to Amber tho.
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| 10:50am 28/01/2005 |
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i just figured that i owuld update now because im in marketing but we have a sub and shes totally stupid and cant see the screen and she keeps walking behind me when im typing and she doesnt know. L8er |
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| 11:49am 27/01/2005 |
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*True friendship is when friends can walk two different ways yet remain together.
Well well well. There’s been a lot of shit going on lately and I don’t know whats going on with anything. My mom and her boyfriend are fighting like crazy, but they fight over the most stupid things. Like last time it was if your grade starts from a 0 or 100. Now Jeff (my moms boyfriend) is pissed because my mom yelled at Logan (my 9 yr old almost step sister) for eating a brownie at 7:30 in the morning. Who could eat a brownie that early that’s fucking crazy, like one morning before 7 she ate half a can of Pringles. Its so retarded.
I cant wait to go to Ambers party on Saturday which I hope that I can still go, my mom better let me. If she doesn’t im gonna be so mad cuz she will have ruined two of my plans for that day. If I cant go that means that I cant hang out with Kayla…or anyone else that is going…
Well Sean is pissed at me, and of course hes pissed at me after i tell him everythings thats been going on. It will be amazing if i can ever trust him again. Okay so this is what happened. We were in Sokos and we were in the back and i lit my lighter under his arm and i didnt realize how close it was and i burned his arm. And even tho i felt really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really bad, i couldnt help but laugh because it smelled sooooooooooooooooooooo bad. And Soko comes over and Ashleys like "did you burn something" i was like "yeah seans arm hair" and then shes like "oh it smells really really bad." I culdnt stop laughing. And i told him if he told anyone anything i told him i would kik his ass. But i really dont think he will...But you never know with Sean.
Well im out L8er!
Its amazin how sum1 can break ur heart, but u still luv them wit all the lil piecez. |
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| 09:45am 25/01/2005 |
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Its good to know that no one reads this shit and that no one cares enough to comment. Well i cant write now because my teacher is going to shut the power on. Write again someother time. L8er |
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| 09:34am 24/01/2005 |
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Well today is an awesome day even tho i havent had a ciggarett yet it doesnt really matter. I need one but i havent stopped laughing and smiling. I just want to scream right now, its unbelievable. Last weekend SUCKED big monkey balls. I did nothing at all except lay on my ass and watch tv. I think i played a half a game of pool but thats only cuz you could see your breath in my room because we took the heaters out and i slept on the couch saturday night. I stayed up until four in the morning keeping the wood stove stocked up so it wouldnt get cold like it was in my room. On Saturday morning Jeff comes home with a big ass dump truck almost completely filled with wood. Me, mikey, cassandra, jimmy and logan had to take all of it in, what we didnt i had to cover with plastic. Then i went outside and picked up all the small pieces. Fun fun fun.
Well i think that i got umm all of 4 calls this weekend. Friday i got a call from Sean, and we talked for a while. Then Ryan called and i didnt talk to him for long cuz i had shit to do. And D Brown called and then i three wayed Dave and we were talking...well i was talking and they were listening so i got off the phone, then i got one call saturday from Ryan and i talked to him for like 10 min then he had to go because his dad came home...and then he called me yesterday when i was trying to call someone else and i noticed that he was there after i dialed so i hung up on him. Funny shit. His little sister is soo cute i was talking on the phone with her last night, shes so funny.
Well for anyone who cares i think that i may be going to 24-7 this week...That is if Ashley Ann comes over which she should because i want to chill with her out of school. And we might go apply at Slices if it opens anytime soon.
Well im out because i dont feel like writting anymore, actually i dont know what to say because i bet anyone who reads this is bored out of there mind BUT I DONT CARE IF YOU'RE BORED DONT READ!!!
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| 11:58am 20/01/2005 |
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Well this is my journal for anybody who cares enough to read it. And i dont really care who does because if i truely didnt want anybody to know anything then i wouldnt be writting it down in this shit. So whatever. I think only a couple of people will know who this is, and then when i put it into my profile everyone will know. Thats not why im not gonna write stuff in here that i dont want certain people to know. So its all good.
Well im getting really annoyed because there is someone sitting next to me in the library and she wont blow her nose and its so annoying me cuz she keeps sniffing it up and its so annoying to the point where i just want to shoot her in the face and kill her. Then that will shut her up. OMFG shes so gay.
Well today has been a really ruff day. I got up at 6 and got ready i was getting ready to go out the door at 6:25 and my mom told me that we had an hour delay. So then i was stuck at home getting bitched at and everything. I couldnt find a butt anywhere and it sux. Im supposed to be quiting but i dont want to and my mom wants me to stop, thats probably why im not stopping. Then i come to school thinking i can have a pack by tomorrow, but noooooo Luigi is a faggot and wont buy them for me..."it causes to much stress" what the fuck is that supposed to mean? And Zach cant get them for me for only god knows why, and Sean doesnt know if he can get them. And im pissed because i need them so bad. Its pretty bad. Then i had Marketing first period and it turns out that i got a 42 on it...i failed another one of Tuapjs test last year, i got a 20 because over half of my work didnt save and i shut down my computer. But O WELL SHIT HAPPENS.
Michael Scott Gilbert was supposed to come over last weekend...and we had plans and everything, then he never came and i asked him why and he said he was busy and had plans...i was like dude we had plans....so i ended up hanging out with somebody else.
Hmm well Ashley, i hope that me and you can chill thursday and hopefully Slices will be open so we can go and apply there. Then we can work there together!!! That would be so awesome!!! LoL.
Well anyways i dont know what else to say so im out. L8er.
*Somebody leave a comment*
i thinK the only reasOn wHy people
hOld ontO memOries so tiqht is Cuz
memOrieS aRe the onLy thinqS that
dOnt chAnqe when everythinq
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